Music in My Heart

I hear all around me eventhough I cannot see it. That's how I know it's there. My dreams haunt me with the veiw of possibilities. That's how I know it's there. God made my heart this way for a reason, so I know it's fair. My purpose is to love so love I will do.

Dear You,

It took me by surprise that you were into me. I embraced the idea that you and I were meant to be for a moment in time or eternity. I wanted to learn your ways, your sighs, your smiles, your everything. The past always likes to haunt me. I knock on the door thinking you would answer, but you just stand there. You won’t answer. You stay silent and still. I cry. You yell. I fear that you don’t hear me or my words. Why? I’m learning about you and your learning about me. This is not the end. It is a new beginning.

Wild Horses I wanna be like you
Growing caution to the wind
I run free too
Wish I could recklessly love
Like I’m longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses

Who would you rather be? Billie Jean or Dirty Diana?

Dirty Diana= Seductress/Sexy

Billie Jean= Desperate/Liar

Pieces of Him

Girls talk about guys all the time. How their dumb, their another species, they aren’t gentlemen, and the insults continue on and on. The thing is guys in our generation to us seem to lack so many things that a young lady like myself would keep adding on to her list of what she doesn’t want in a guy. As ladies we all have this profile for the type of guy we want, however the truth is that guy in our profiles does not exist. Here is the TRUTH. The TRUTH is simple. There is no such thing as “The responsible type dude,” “The grown man,” “The Hood Nigga,” “The business man,” “The family man,” and the lists goes on. The men we truly want have different pieces to them. They are not just one kind of person, but are made up of a multitude of colors. Similar to a rainbow. It is important for us ladies to remember that we are not going to get this man all at once. We’re only going to get pieces of him one piece at a time. We may not like all the pieces we get but they are growing and changing just like our pieces. PATIENCE is key. Sometimes you gotta move on to get a better set of pieces that suit you better. Sometimes you gotta match your pieces with his and work through them. The moral is simple. A bond between two growing individuals is better than a bond between two separate individuals. Think about it.

The Firecracker and The Butterfly

Once there were to girls. Very lovely and unique in their own way. One was very sharp. Had many layers to herself. Very creative. Full of color. Beauty adored her as she sweeps through life. The other was full of life. Filled with color and surprise. Beauty stunned all that saw her. These two individuals came together at times when their colors were just beginning to bloom and be recognized. They never knew what the world would think of them. When they were together. They never seemed to care. They had each other. Together they made a beautiful rainbow that would never disappear rain nor shine. They were the Firecracker and The Butterfly.

Love or Life

Sometimes I ask myself the question “would I rather be alone then spend my life with someone I don’t love?” My answer is always filled with uncertainty because I don’t want to be alone but I don’t want to spend my life settling for less just because I am afraid of living this life without a companion. “So what do I want?” That answer is always simple. 1) Fall in love 2) Get married 3) Travel the world 4) Start a family 5) Raise your family. There it is…so simple right. I fear not. I fear that I will never find my TRUE love or get married or have a family. The funny thing about it is that getting married, traveling, having a family, raising your family is all the easy part. The hard part is finding that person that sweeps you off your feet and deals with your faults all at once. Sometimes I wonder what am I doing wrong. Aside from my life’s aspirations at the end of the day I just want to be with that person. Currently, I feel like I’ve found him. However, I don’t know if he feels the same way. I don’t want to rush anything or think he could be my husband. I would like to see some of his interest in something other than football, his family, and friends. I don’t think I have a place in his life and sometimes that bothers me. I do not have any rights to have a place, but I do feel that we have something special and it could be something more if he would give it a chance. So I guess the real question is “would I rather be alone then search for a new guy?” The answer would be “I am tired.”